shhh....

I have a secret! I am going on a surprise trip. I can't say too much because someone might be reading and I don't want to ruin the surprise. But I am super excited and can't wait to hit the road! Unfortunately, I have to wait until Wednesday. It's probably better that way so I can get some stuff done.

I haven't smoked since Tuesday. It's probably better that you stay away from me because I'm not very nice right now. At all. Just ask Jesse. No. Don't.

okay now what.

All done with school! Yesterday I went to an interview for my internship that starts in the fall. So today is my first day of having no official plans. So I will go to Target. And Michaels. And the grocery store. I was going to cut the grass because the back yard looks like a meadow straight out of Little House on the Prairie (except there aren't hills. or trees. or little girls running around in bonnets. never mind.) but it is raining and we have an electric lawn mower and I think it would be a bad idea. Yay!

Oh. I do have an official plan. Today I will not smoke cigarettes. I am a quitter.

We'll see.

almost done.

Classes ended last week. I turned in my last paper on Saturday afternoon. Today is my last day of internship.

I will finally be able to catch up on reading The New Yorker.

Finally.

i don't understand you.

• the dude in my class that was never taught to move his jaw when he speaks. It appears to be permanently unhinged. I do not believe it is a physical disability. I believe it is a motivation disability. He is too lazy to move his mouth. He needs to stop being motivated to talk to me. I will continue with the blank stares.
• the professor that gives me 100% on my paper but then writes, "this was written different than what I was looking for however, it was exactly what I hoped you would get out of it so... well done." I appreciate the 100%. But next time, maybe make your assignment a little more clear than, "Write about your experience." and I will possibly write what you were looking for.
  
• the entire class that is in love with above professor. Are you really learning that much from her? I'm not.
  

i'll be alright.

Just when life was looking manageable again I got some bad news. My uncle Gene died last Thursday. He didn't show up for work on Thursday or Friday so his boss called the police. They found him dead on his kitchen floor. No foul play. A bad heart attack. Uncle Gene was my mom's little brother. Always quiet. Always kind. Always driving some piece of shit, yet exciting, vehicle like a really old Porsche or a VW van that he had to park on a hill because it didn't go in reverse. Always working really hard but still showing up to family gatherings after a long night. My grandma was pregnant with him when my grandpa died. My grandma and grandpa were out on a boat ride when somehow the boat flipped. Neither of them could swim. My grandma was able to hold on to the side of the boat but my grandpa drowned. I am so sad about uncle Gene but have been able to not think about it and work on school stuff. The funeral is on Tuesday and I'm sure I'll be a mess. But hopefully by then I'll have my presentation and my paper done.

I only got to see uncle Gene a few times a year at family stuff. But I miss him already.

take note.

I am at my internship right now. The computers here are straight out of the early 90's (read: pieces of shit) so I rarely use them, especially for internet purposes because the blue screen of death shows up if I have more than one Explorer window open at a time and it's a pain in the ass. At one time I must have posted something from this computer because when I just opened blogger.com to write about Abu Ghraib, I was already signed in to blogger. Yeah. I never signed out the last time I posted something from this computer. I think that was sometime last semester.

One time I was at Joanna's and I checked my gmail account and didn't sign out. Lucky for me she is a good friend and did not send out dirty emails to the church directory from my email address.

Sign out!!

what would rumsfeld do?

On my way to "work" this morning I drove by a van with the company's name, "Blue Water Boarding Kennel" written on the back of the van and silhouettes of a couple dogs. Deep in my heart I knew something was wrong. A kennel that tortures dogs? Who does that? And then I realized the company really should not put their name in one line. Perhaps something like,

Blue Water

Boarding Kennel

would keep morons like me from assuming they are the Abu Ghraib for dogs.

i think i see the light.

No, I'm not dying. Two more weeks of school. Only five more papers and one big ass presentation to go. All the wedding stuff is done. I'm finally thinking I can do this.

Now I'll probably get hit by a bus on my way to internship this morning.

signs of spring in michigan.

• Monday - Opening day. 60 + degrees and sunshine.
• Wednesday - 2nd game of the season. At 1PM it was 43 degrees. By 3PM it was 38 degrees. And snowing. My entire body shook uncontrollably for almost 2 hours. Trembling knee caps are very unsettling.
  
• Thursday - 3rd game of the season. Postponed because of the cold. Wind chill in the 20's.
  

baseball tonight is just wrong.

"Reyes is in the box slapping it around."

signs of spring

• the screams of ghetto cat rape outside my window
• pheasants in the back yard
• switching the ridiculously warm down comforter for blankets and then freezing my ass off all night
• OPENING DAY!!