Can you feel the negative vibes coming from this blog? That's right. I'm feeling shitty enough that I am sending my negativeness to you through the internet. It's amazing, isn't it?

Okay so I need to be more positive because this feeling shitty and depressed is getting me NOWHERE. No. Where. Nope. I've been trying new things to feel positive. For example, I've been adding exclamation points to sentences in my emails in hopes of sounding excited and happy! It just makes me look like a moron that needs to go back to school to learn to use correct punctuation. Another example is with coworkers. I have decided to take the stance that it's not that serious. So when they try to make me do things I think are stupid, I explain my viewpoint and then go along with whatever it is that I think is stupid. We'll see how this works out. But the person trying to make me do it thinks I am being positive and a team player. Now who is the moron? Oh. Me. Damn.

Last night I had a dream that I had to go to a meeting at the Salvation Army with my dad. Sounds strange but it really isn't. Back in the day, my dad and I both worked for agencies that served the homeless population in the same city and ended up at a lot of meetings together. The strange part was that I asked him if we could take the hot tub because I really needed to relax during the meeting. He said sure and started to unhook the hot tub that is in their back yard. When he got it unhooked, the truck came to get the hot tub and I realized it was 6:55 p.m. and the meeting started at 7 p.m. so there wouldn't be any time to take the hot tub. My dad just shrugged and said "oh well." and we left for the meeting. I haven't sat in their hot tub in years. We got one when I was in 8th grade. Maybe it was 9th grade. Anyway, it was a fun thing to have for the first few years. The school district probably didn't appreciate me returning my books at the end of the year all wrinkled because I did homework in the hot tub (I didn't actually submerge the books in the water or anything) but they never said anything. I think the last time I actually sat in the hot tub was 5 years ago. Maybe the dream was telling me that a nice way to relax and chill out would be to get a hot tub. Or at least sit in one.