school is hard.

Tonight sucks. I'm supposed to read all this crap for class tomorrow and I can't get through it. I'm trying. I really am. And I'm having flashbacks to the first time I was in college and couldn't read for more than ten minutes AND comprehend what I was reading. I took Ritalin and it isn't working. It hasn't been working for a while. My doctor had increased the dose and I thought I was better. But I'm not. And now my next appointment with doctor isn't for two weeks. I can wait but I have an awful feeling that I will be way behind in my school work and I might be single because my boyfriend is getting a glimpse of what life is like with an adult with A.D.D. and I don't think he is enjoying it very much. Everything is so loud in my head tonight. I can hear my can of Coca-Cola Classic fizzing next to me and it is so distracting. Just drink it. I know. Noise-reducing headphones and an ipod might work. We'll see...